Lost...

Sometimes I feel so lost. I always have a game plan for ever situation. I am currently in a situation where I don't know what to do. I care so much about this person but I really don't feel like I can help them. She is turning into somebody else. She is somebody else already. I don't know what to do. I don't want to shut them out of my life. I know it's horrible but I've thought about it but I can't help it. I don't like the person that she is becoming. She means so much to me. We had different dreams growing up. Now I don't know what has become of her. I feel like she is doing this all for a stupid guy. And her fucking marriage talk. I "feel" it's right. Fucking morman shit. I hate him. I hate him for what he has done to her. She's already made up her mind about what she wants. Why the hell should I help her now? Oh Diana it's real because of this testimony and that testimony. I know it's right because I believe in it. I believe I can fly. Doesn't mean that I am right. I don't know about the rest of my family but I feel like it will tear me away from her. I can see it happening but she's blinded too much by this that she doesn't see it happening. I just don't know what to do. Today is day number 3 of crying all day. I have never cried this much in my life.

Maybe you were born that way

I know you guys love a good ranting blog, well if you don't, then you shouldn't really read this. It's official. My best friends are stupid. Just stupid. I think that within the 25 years that I have been alive, that I learn and grow throughout life and my experiences. I will just tell you guys, that my friends do not. I have tried and tried to look past it but I can no further. I have some friends who have grown into adults (Angie) and the rest have not. It's sad when my 18 year old brother is more mature than you. It's really sad. I just feel so frustrated over the whole thing. I am so done with the matter that I just may separate myself and be done with it all. Once I reach a certain point and am finished with something, I am able to just turn my feelings off and be done with it. I won't contact you for a while because I am just so frustrated with you. You're immature, idiotic, materialistic and just plain stupid. You care about things that people should care about in junior high school. What is wrong with you? You frustrate the hell out of me because you're so retarded. You are turning 26 this year and you still live with your mom and about to move in with your sister because you can't find or hold down a job. I tried to help you. Even gave you a place to live back in the day but you were the worst roommate back then that I didn't want you to move in with me now and just leech off me again. I am just done. I don't care if your last 2 birthdays have been shit. You deserved it, that's why. I tried to make and plan a good birthday for you. I wanted to try and plan a trip to Vegas for you but good thing that nobody likes you and wants to come with us. The only other person who could go was Heather but she's broke. I didn't want to fork over the money for all of us to go to Vegas. Good thing I didn't book a hotel room like I almost did because then I would have been screwed. You piss me off all the time. You know all the bad shit that has and is happening to you, well that's self perpetuated moron. You lost your jobs because you're lazy. You live with your mom because you have no job. You have nowhere else to go because you use people. This is why I get along better with guys. Guys don't carry bullshit like my friends. I just wish you would grow a brain. I don't want to be friends with idiots.

Death of a podcast

Well here is my monthly blog. I really need to start blogging more often. You just would just hear me bitching though. I don't know if you guys really want to hear that maybe you guys do.

Well as you guys can tell that my old podcast is dead. D-E-A-D!!! It's ok though. It was a good podcast. Funny, witty and entertaining. The problem was that there were hundreds of geek podcasts just like us. We never even hit over a hundred for our podcast. Well my cohosts and I decided to try a different type of podcast. We decided on podcasting about 80's cartoons. This podcast has been going great. The name is simple, 80's Cartoon Podcast. This podcast is going so much better than my last. We only have 5 episodes out but we about 4,000 listeners. So much better than my other. We like watching cartoons and we like podcasting.

I hope you guys enjoy.

Just ranting

I know this is cliché to do but I am going to do this. Again, nobody reads this blog. I just need an emotional outlet for this. Right now I am just so sick of some my friends. Most of my friends and family act their age and can take care of themselves, I don’t know why others can't.. I just wish my friends would grow up. I want them to succeed in live but they won’t do anything about it.

They are immature. They need to take care of themselves but they can't. They go out and they try to find a guy to take care of them. It just pisses me off to see that they are dependent and will work for nothing to try and get everything.

Don't take any other people down with you. Just because they're good and nice doesn't mean that you should take advantage of them. It just pisses me off so bad. You're a horrible person. Your mom takes care of you. She even knows that you have no drive in life. You're my friend but you're still a horrible horrible person. I wish you could be a better person. So much more would happen to you. I would like you a lot more and hang out with you more. I just know that will never happen.

Summertime

Summertime. A time where friends make memories. I am so excited for summer. I love everything about it. I am a little bummed though because here in Utah, we don't have a beach. I just want to shred some waves. I can't wait for camping, hiking, tubing and swimming all this summer.

I am also working to get back my bikini body. Almost there. I don't care about talking about this on blogspot because nobody reads this anyways. Ha ha. Well good luck to me. I'll keep you posted.

My First Angry Post...sort of

I was pretty angry and was going to post a big blog about it...but Heather made me feel tons better about the situation. I was only going to say that, but I guess I'll give you more details. It was about just a dip shit friend. They don't keep up with me anyways. They won't even read this. I am ok now that I don't need a huge blog about it.

Thanks Heather. ^_^

WASD Cast

Hey guys. So this is my podcast. For details go to www.wasdcast.com. It's a nerd cast. It's actually more funny than informative, from what people have told me. It's a fun hobby. I love my co-hosts. They are funny.

First there is Cody. He's funny. Mucho funny. He is the video game guy of all of us. I mean I play video games but he is SO into World or Warcraft. He will play console games but really would never finish them. I play a ton of ds games. I haven't been into many console games besides Final Fantasy and Fable.

Next there is Spencer. He is our resident comic book guy. He does another podcast. www.talesfromtheparentsbasement.com It's about comic book. He is funny. He likes making fun on Jarrod and Cody on the podcast.

Last is our guest host, Jarrod. He doesn't play video games, read comics, or watch movies or tv. Why the hell is he on our show? Well he's funny. He's there for comic relief and to lighten the mood. Our last podcast that we recorded actually didn't include him. We thought we were going to be way too serious...but it wasn't. I actually talked more than I have in the past. Jarrod has been grounded from podcasting for about a month from his wife. We were podcasting at Spencer's house, when it was over Cody and I left and apparently Jarrod didn't. He stayed there until 3 in the morning just bullshitting around with Spencer. So he's grounded.

Well I really hope people catch onto the podcast. It would be great to have at least 50 fans out there. We'll see how it goes. I have decided to whore myself on myspace. Hopefully it will help to get fans. I have been adding nerd as friends and hopefully they'll listen.

Lazy Diana

Sorry guys for never posting. There is just so much going on right now. I starting doing a podcast. http://wasdcast.libsyn.com/ So once a week Cody, Spencer, Jarod and I talk about comic books, video games, movies and tv. It's a podcast about all things geek. So if you're feeling randy, go give it a listen.

Lets see...what else have I been doing...hmm...I know. I was being lazy.

Hopefully not anymore.