Lost...

Sometimes I feel so lost. I always have a game plan for ever situation. I am currently in a situation where I don't know what to do. I care so much about this person but I really don't feel like I can help them. She is turning into somebody else. She is somebody else already. I don't know what to do. I don't want to shut them out of my life. I know it's horrible but I've thought about it but I can't help it. I don't like the person that she is becoming. She means so much to me. We had different dreams growing up. Now I don't know what has become of her. I feel like she is doing this all for a stupid guy. And her fucking marriage talk. I "feel" it's right. Fucking morman shit. I hate him. I hate him for what he has done to her. She's already made up her mind about what she wants. Why the hell should I help her now? Oh Diana it's real because of this testimony and that testimony. I know it's right because I believe in it. I believe I can fly. Doesn't mean that I am right. I don't know about the rest of my family but I feel like it will tear me away from her. I can see it happening but she's blinded too much by this that she doesn't see it happening. I just don't know what to do. Today is day number 3 of crying all day. I have never cried this much in my life.